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* Mood: crazy dead, happy...but dead.
* Listening to: Run (Snow Patrol Cover) by Leona Lewis
* Reading: my essay.
* Eating: carrot cake.
* Drinking: tea.


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ON MY MIND @ zee MOMENT(besides "Wow, im so dead...")
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YEAAHH!



2008 is pretty much over, and 2009 is whats goin' downs! with every milli-second that it takes me to type, and every 3 seconds that it takes me to think of what i am going to type, the New year is going on and on and nothing is really stopping it.

So let's go on with the traditional New Year discussion:

What went on in '08 that was MEGA-AWESOME, and MEGA-MEMORABLE?
A lot, i can't even remember half of them its too much. But a lot of funny ass shit goes down with me and my friends.
One thing everyone can remember that is pretty damn obvious is:

OOOOOOOOBAMA-RAMMA!!!

Black president elect.
Black president.
The world is definitely changing...no avoiding that obvious fact that's blinking in your face.

I shared 2008 with many people, some new, some old, some REALLY OLD...
But, it never gets old to see their faces and laugh with them and discuss certain things that are better left kept in a closet. This year i learnt, that to be a great friend...
You may have to accept some of your friends' flaws. Not all your friends can be the perfect friend and perfect human. YOU AREN'T EVEN THE PERFECT PERSON, so who are YOU to ask for a perfect friend?

One who has absolutely nothing wrong with them.

Its nearly impossible.

I already said this before but i'll say it again, in case you guys thought i was trying to make a joke:

I APPRECIATE YOU GUYS!!
And love you guys a lot...no homo.
I obviously don't say it everyday, cause like...no.
Sometimes i say certain things that would be considered as "DRY" or "Cruel"...but you all know im just honest and saying what I have to say.

NO BUSH BEATING IS TOLERATED.

Im going to go ahead and name you losers now and maybe even give you guys a little testimony:

MA' LOSER BIZNITCHES: (in no real order..so calm your asses down. The order is who i recently saw or talked to/communicated with yesterday or last year(meaning 08..duh) )

Anna Nguyen:
Its funny how people judge only on appearance. I swear in Elementary School I never knew you spoke. You were always quiet and whatever. I don't even remember you laughing. Then i get to know you and BAM!!! ANNA GOT JOKES N' JOKES N' LIP. Youre a little meany too. MY GOOOSH. HAHA. Anyways. Your one of the reliable ones. Cept for when you are too freakum lazy to get your ass out of bed and come to school early, or fricken go out with us to the mall or just to Nat's house...which is just down the street. -rolls eyes-

Natasha Caruana
Piggies. Gino Beats. Laughing at Nothing. Dancing and getting embarrassed. Being a tad out of it at times. Always thinking you don't look good in something and then having me tell you "it looks good, what are you talking about!?!". And wanting to dye your hair blonde and having everyone tell you "YOU ARE DUMB.".
Natasha. You are a weirdo. But still one of my reliable friends who take my shit wheni feel like ranting about something that pissing me of. Your my little Lawyer, Bank helper, and Investigator. Funny as hell.

Magda Koczela
WRONGO!!!!
I cannot believe you and how weird and viginous you are. You and your horses and shit. Your weird impossible MAN SEARCH!
"My husband needs to be australian, have a farm, (some dog i dont remember what kind), and a pick-up truck..." wtf!!?!?. And your weird love with carrie underwood. Geez. I dunno, HOW i became your friend. Haha. I guess it all started in gr.7. And then in gr.8 you suggested i be one of the transfers to MR. BORDIGNON'S CLASS!
I will never forgive you, sam, and lea for that shit.
But i love you guys anyways. haha. LOSERS.
I have nothing else to say, i love you and thats done...haha.

Melanie Simms

MELA HOPDAT!!
JUMP DAT
BOUNCE DAT
POUNCE DAT
STRETCH DAT
BITCH SLAP DAT
LMAO.
Thats the only time you are ever going to witness me mixing your name with the "DAT"
haha.
I met you in such an akward situation.
The same day i met you was the same day you slept over.
Hahaha. Then we ate pizza for lunch and used money out of my piggie bank...all the change...probably pissed that guy off.

You are always listening to me rant, taking me always being late and giving me advice. And in addition to all that shit...you are straight with me. No bush-beating.
If there's something you think needs a bit of improvement, (like my social skills..haha) you tell me.
And i appreciate it cause, i would do the same.
Funy ass weirdo..
"Blacker than me"
haha.
Alright i don't know what else to say... but you already know how it goes.
Sadaf Butt
...
You are a wierd one.
But you love to stand up for your buddies and defend whats right at te same time...which is good enough.
you are one of those people who just say whats on your mind sometimes...without thinking. Haha.
But thats all good. I still love you meng. Its a good thing. No matter how dumb people think you arre, we know your actually smart. Sometimes i have to ask you for help in math class...and then you explain i all weirdy and i have to ask you you to dumb it down.

Or like in math class how we always try to beat each other with you can answer a question first.
Loser. lol.

Laila Butt
THE FUEL TO MY FIRE.
The IVORY to my EBONY.
The HA to my HE.
The OH MY to my GOSH
The PB to my J
and the list goes on...

You make my day all the time, and even if you dont come to school i come and visit cause i need the energy to get through the day. haha. Then i eat dinner with you. Haha.
Listen to your cute little mummy talk.
Listen to you say how embarrassing she is.
I think i have already told you eerything you need to hear about our friendship...haha. We work off each other's energy. If i am having a bad day, all i have to do is look at you and its all good.
If your having a bad day, all we gotsta do is be all like:
Laila: "SHARIFA!!!"
Sharifa: "LAILA!!!!"
Both: "OH MA GAWWWD!! YEEEAAAHS!! WHAT IT DOOO GANGSTA!!??!"
Haha, and its done.

Nuff said. You get it.

Patty OSAY!!
"True say, osei!"
haha.
You are the only black person on this list...haha.
BUT THATS OKAY!! You are quiet at times. And people may think your shy. BUT YOUR NOT SHY! Youre a little feisty one. But your still fair, i know i can trust you with certain things and you don't try to start problems with us, you know. Very loyal and trust-worthy friend. Like you know what FRIEND means..haha. Great Job. LURVE YOU!

Ok.. now im getting really lazy and won't be doing any more testi's BUT i may write a short little something.
Don't think badly of it..
Just understand that yesterday was NEW YEARS EVE and what the "hao"(sp) do you expect!!?!
IN THE FORM OF JOT NOTES:
Claudine Tran:
- Wise
- helpful
- useful ahah
- like to walk around and travel a lot..haha. you better just wait till the weather gets nicer before you ask me out again...=p
- also knows what friend means...and likes to keep in contact with them. Not one of thoes people who move and then you never hear from their ass ever again.
There's more...but im am way lazy.

Caroline Tanjutco
Michael Torres
Keifer Mentore
Nicholas V.
Keisha Belfon
Paul Nguyen
Kandide Kobongo
Jojo Rio
Paula Nguyen
Ricky Rodrigues


now i am mega lazy so i just named everyone who would get a testimonial if i was not so entirely lazy.

so now on to ME! -everyone leaves this note now...-
I have some new years resolutions here, some very easy and some may be a little harder BUT THATS ALL GOOD.
(1). Spend More Time with Family & Friends
(2). Enjoy Life A little More.. Not like i don't. But whatever...more than i already do.
(3). Get Organized
(4). Organize Priorities
(5). Reduce Overall Stress
(6). Get To Work...
(7). Stop Procrastinating.
(8). Learn How To Cook More Things...
(9). Improve My Social Skills (do more feedbacking and less "uh huh"ing)
(10). Buy More New Shoes...i forgot the feeling i get when i get new shoes, and just relived it this holiday. I remembered...i love it.
(11). Do More Around The House And Stop Saying "I'll Do It", Then Never End Up Doing It.
(12). Get More Sleep And Stop Staying Awake For No Good Reason.
(13). Stop Making Plans Then Cutting Them Off Just Cause Your Too Lazy To Leave The House...
(14). Try To Keep Swearing To A Minimum. Its Not Becoming. XP
(15). i'll think of something.
(16). i'll think of something.

OKAY:
I think i forgot some people..and if i did...sorry.
maybe i'll get more people later...
cause i know you probably dont want to speak up and tell me yourself..
Or maybe if you were metioned and think i forgot someone you can tell me.
Or maybe I forgot to say something in your Testi. (haha testes), sorry if i did.

.two

THIS WAS:
Back when my ex-bf broke up with me. I really liked him, one of those young people things where you think its very borderline love, when it probably is Over the edge infatuation.
here it is:

* Mood: crazy melancholy.
* Listening to: nothing.
* Reading: nothing.
* Eating: nothing.
* Drinking: nothing. ("unfortunately...")


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ON MY MIND @ zee MOMENT(besides "Yall goin make me lose mah mind up in hereah, up in hereah!" lmao)
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Okay,

So, before this I would always be all blank and shit... but then I remembered:
Thesauruses help me when I'm facing some serious emotional crap... cause i'm a loser and thats what losers do.

So here we go:
inconsolable*
disconsolate
despondent*
grief-stricken
despairing*
dreary*
dispirited
melancholy**
Ok... I think you get it.
I'm feeling emoo...haha.

I was only going to take one word, but ended up taking in a bunch.. since they all sounded just right.

Hence the stars on the perfect ones.

Definitions:
(Im only doing the starred ones cause.... well just cause!)

inconsolable unable to be consoled... it was pretty straight forward.
melancholy a gloomy state of mind or[ pensive(/deep) reflection or contemplation.]
despondent feeling or showing profound hopelessness or discouragement.
dreary dull or boring.
despaired To be overcome by a sense of futility(/uselessnes) or defeat.
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Eventhough all those starred words were great... the one that really stands out for me right now is melancholy.

So now lets use that word to get to the -heart- of this... no pun intended.
har har.

APPLYING THE WORD TO EVERYDAY SHIZ:
When in a state of melancholy, you do a lot of thinking. Especially if there is a lot to think about. Though, sometimes you rather not think about it and move on to other things... there is always that moment you have to yourself in silence. Then it just sneaks up on you from behind and there you are in complete melancholy once again. Then you try to go somewhere with a friend, and they get the idea that your dreary, since you don't speak and all you do is nod your head.

Now your trying your hardest to explain to them the situation at hand, and trying to do that whole "it doesn't matter, I don't care...infact I could care less!" but really in your mind you're still pensively thinking you couldn't care more. But no one needs to know that. Even if they already do. They know because its obvious, and because its true. Cause how could someone who is normally so lively become such a shrew (definition: a woman of violent temper..)?
(hey, I just rhymed!)
But all you know is you didn't SAY it, you thought about it pensively while in your melancholy state, that you are still currently in.
Thats all that counts....

But still...
they try to console you and you hug and pat them on the back, though they don't know that you're inconsolable despondent and despaired.
But thats okay, they showed how much they cared...
and you see who your real friends are from the ones who did nothing just stood there and smiled.

But you already knew that one person was guile(definition: treacherous, cunning, deceiving).
Relieved, that nightmare of theirs was over...
You can't wait to screw that one over
Your goal is to be calm, and not let this effect your personality... trying not to become a shrew forever and let it just be a phase. Soon you'll feel better, even if it takes days.

(ok so I was trying to rhyme some more. After I rhymed the first time I just tried to rhyme some more...haha)

Now I should have done this long before... now i'm a bit more calm.

Geez.

-sharz.

.one

* Mood: crazy inspired.
* Listening to: You by Janelle Monae
* Reading: an inspiring blog.
* Eating: nothing.
* Drinking: tea.


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ON MY MIND @ zee MOMENT(besides " True say.. " and "oh. my. Gosh. i la la la love those nice new pumas! and I don't even really like pumas at all "lmao. )
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Hello..
short introduction to why i have started this blog.

IN THIS BLOG YOU WILL SEE A LOT OF:
Me talking about my transistional journey from relaxed hair to natural hair
My Big Chop.
My Thoughts
My Challenges (not only with hair but with gr. 11 and student life )
And more exciting things...

My name is Sharifa,(I use ShariEbelle because its my name mixed with an african name 'Ebelle' which means mercy/kindness, just in case you were wondering, you probably weren't though)) I am sixteen turning seventeen in about 8 to 7 months (depending on how you count months and stuff...i start from the current month), and i am from Canada. So I'm guessing this is where i introduce myself and tell you about myself in brief detail(or elaborated detail for some...).

So here I go.

It all started about a month ago or so, when i went to the hair dresser and she relaxed my hair for me once again, because i was due...probably a couple weeks overdue. Well, she put it in and after, oh i don't know five minutes, it started really bothering me and burning...so I told her it was burning and she told me to just wait another fifteen minutes for it to settle in.
Now..im not the kind of person that likes to be demanding and bothersome, but that day it really was irritating me and i actually felt as if i would start to cry. Yes...cry. So then when she washed it out it was still burning! Yes.. STILL BURNING! So I go home and its still stinging like a -beep-. So i decide to ignore it cause, i am not too good with pain, so I thought this was just me being a baby.

Long story short....
It stung for a week.

After a week i couldn't stand it anymore and had to be emancipated.
When i say emancipated, i mean not just from the irritating stinging in my head, but the whole relaxing thing in general. But i did NOT want to just start with a BIG CHOP and go on from there...
So i searched for other ways to transition without shaving my head...

long story short i looked at some videos on youtube got inspired and explored some more and found NAPPTURALITY.COM, and assumed this site could be very helpful. And its proving me very correct so far, and inspiring me more to read about peoples results and journeys and tips.

i was already starting from last month, but then went back and permed my hair cause my grandma got ticked, but that time i let my friend do it for me...and she only sort of "touched it up"

that was at the beginning of the month, so now im starting again.

Though i can't help thinking....
i feel too young to be making such a decision...
but i really think i rather be natural that "relaxed"

cause "relaxed isn't really RELAXING at all...
its gosh darn stressful.

sorry this may have been long...but, Hello again and looking forward to the experience.
It should be very...interesting.

-ShariEbelle.

COPY AND PASTE WORKS WONDERS....



This is an old blog i did on FACEBOOK.
I do most of my writing there, than forget to add it to BLOGGER.COM.
So this is old.



Oh. My. Gosh.

Shit's harder than I had originally thought it would be.
But a friend sent me something that a friend sent them, and it got me thinking....
True say....

This blog:
"http://www.lostinthewillderness.com/2008/11/keep-it-moving.html" ,

really got me thinking, and it was more than just "true say."
Funny thing is, I always say things along the lines of this, but people laugh at me.
But here's some random dude, and he thinks the same way...
This guy is smart.
Smart not only for thinking about life this way, but because of elaborating and giving advice on how to deal with the shit.

The blog was passed on to me, as a thought of consoling me...
And though I thought I was inconsolable, this blog really turned me towards the "light"?, I guess.

Cause, I already thought of life this way...
Just, I didn't really know the answer to the way played out question:
"What the hell?! Where do I go from here?"

And that's sort of where this little bloggy comes in handy.
I mean, it didn't tell me a step by step process titled:
"What To Do When Facing H_ a _ _ b _ _ _ k : A 10 Step Process."
even though that would help a lot more...the key is to figure it out yourself.
Then comes that lecture your parents usually give you (or, at least they usually give me...), about:
"you aren't a baby! things can't just get handed to you! you have to do things for yourself!"

-yawn-



So anyways,

I think anyone who thinks reading this will benefit them...
(and it just might)
I believe they should read this:
http://www.lostinthewillderness.com/2008/11/keep-it-moving.htm.

I don't really enjoy tagging people in notes...
But I'll tag some peeps.
Though I know some are too lazy to read it...
and they might only read it if I copy and paste...
But this blog is just too great for copy & pastdge.

haha.

Some of you might not even get it. so I'm just going to forget about tagging.

-Sharz.
=]


((btw: thankstothefriendandthefriendofthefriendsomuchforsharing, andthankstothatdudewhoblogedinthefirstplacetoo.))